So, I've been pretty much absent from the online world for the past few weeks. The summer semester started and I've been doing some re-evaluating and re-prioritizing of everything that I do. I often struggle with feeling fragmented and scattered and I think the only way to solve that is to cut back on some of the things that I've been doing, or at least stop daydreaming with new ideas and just focus on the things that I know. Does anyone else have a desire to know how to do everything? I feel like I want to learn it all and then decide what I like, but really, I end up liking most things that I try and that's why I cannot focus. I think if I could choose one thing, I could do it well, but instead, I choose many things and just do them well-ish. This post is probably sounding about as jumbled as I'm feeling.
I feel so lucky to work from home, and really, I know how fortunate that makes me. But sometimes it seems like if I just got a "real" job, I wouldn't have so many problems focusing. Like I could just go to work from 8-5 and then forget about things until the next morning. I'd love to hear from some other artists that work from home about how they find time to focus on their art. I find that when I fully intend to spend the day working on a project, there are numerous phone calls, laundry to be done, endless homework assignments, grocery shopping, and lists of other distractions that keep me so occupied that I don't get to spend time on the things that are really important to me. And then when I find some spare time, I can't decide if I'd rather work on things for weather&noise, Indie Emporium, my ebay store, my artwork, or one of the other many things that I'm always thinking about. I keep saying that I'm going to just go up to the studio in a 4 hour block and not answer the phone, check email, or think about anything else. Right now I think my biggest "to do" on the list is getting the 3 websites that I've been working on finished. I think that will be a huge relief.. really huge. But, learning AutoCAD this semester isn't meshing with learning Dreamweaver on my own.
And, I want to apologize to everyone that I've been ignoring. I do know that I have an inbox full of emails, missed calls/txts on my cell phone, and the home phone has been flashing "21" for a few days. Is it awful to just delete without listening.. I know I need to change all of my billing addresses on EVERY ACCOUNT I'VE EVER HAD ANYWHERE because my post office box place closed, I'm just feeling pretty anti-social and overwhelmed.
Tonight, I'll be finishing at least one un-finished project.. the apron that I started a few weeks ago with Emily of
Girl with the Red Kerchief. BTW, she's a great teacher!
Tomorrow I've planned a nice morning of getting some free coffee (yay coupons!) and then going with the husband to see Away We Go. Then we're going to get our house ready for a visit from the inlaws next week (thurs-mon) and go shopping for ingredients for all of those awesome cupcakes I'll be baking for my birthday party which might just be next weekend. Sunday I have a pretty big assignment due, so I bet I'll be spending most of the day on that. And sometime in there, I'd really like to find some time to enjoy my dad's wonderful earthbox vegetable garden, take Tucker to the new dog park, nap with my husband, and a few of those other things that make my heart happy.